The Diary: Heaven (Part 1)

I always heard that heaven was in the sky
Up high, up high...maybe where the eagles fly
Or even higher, past mars and the stars 
I can't even see


A concept unimaginable by a sinner like me...
A concept that can't exceed my fear of flight...
A concept I try to decipher in the night...


I can't find heaven, it's become encrypted like a code
Encrypted and lost, in a sinner's soul
Filled to the brim with the blood, sex, and money of my generation
Filled and it runneth over with lies and deceit of a sinner's nation


I can't find heaven no more
I lost the ancient map that God gave us long ago
Did it ever even exist?
In this world I don't know...


Is heaven what makes the sex good?
The money green?
The liquor mean? 
Is heaven that feeling when I wind my body to the beat of the song?
When my body says it's right....


And when my heart thinks it's right....or wait....is it wrong?




~Yours Truly, Miss Niah