The More Things Seem To Change....

The Truth: Quote Of The Day

"Emancipate yourselves from mental slavery.
None but ourselves can free our minds."
-Bob Marley

The Diary: When You Go Through Hell...

Finding Yourself...

When she fell into the hole, right into the depths of hell...

I tried to reach for her...but I slipped....I fell

as we tumbled through madness...

I tried to get her in my grasp

...but our fingers lost each other in the ash

...in the smoke she was gone in a flash

so I tumbled through the darkness all alone...

no helping hand, no love, no soul...

and what about my heart?

That shit was scarred a long time ago 

So I went through hell...no life, no soul

I tumbled through darkness...

through the fire...

I fell through hell in a daze

It was brutal, bloody, and sick in so many ways

I fell through my memories...I fell through time...

I relived so many nightmares...

I still cry sometimes....

The fire I felt I can never forget....

probably because of the damage it did

The blistered skin is a constant reminder

the pain and the suffering made it hard to find her...

I knew I could still find her if I kept my faith

but pretty soon that began to fade away

And that's when it happened, I hit rock bottom...

I found myself in the belly of hell...

bloody, broken, and just a damaged shell

I knew that I couldn't leave this place without her...

I couldn't walk away...I couldn't doubt her

So I wiped the blood off my face and did some soul searching

I knew I would find her where my demons were lurking...

I found her...weak and dying...

naked...beaten...alone...crying

I reached out my hand and said  "come with me"

I grabbed her hand so we could leave

We climbed through hell, at two different paces...

her dragging along...and me...barely making it

we almost lost each other again...but we fought it out

we made it to the end....

we came out of hell as one...

me and my soul....me and my one

we came to the surface with more fight...

we came back to life....

we felt the cool air...we felt the night

we danced by ourselves...we sung a song

happy we were together again

happy we were one...


~Yours Truly, Miss Niah

I came to win....

The Truth: Quote Of The Day

"Who are you to judge the life I live?
I know I'm not perfect
-and I don't live to be-
but before you start pointing fingers...
make sure you hands are clean!" 

 

-Bob Marley 

The Diary: Judgement Part 1

For those with high opinions....

Judgement. The dictionary meaning of this word is: the ability to judge, make a decision, or form an opinion objectively, authoritatively, and wisely, esp. in matters affecting action; good sense; discretion. But in today's world the word has transformed  into an ugly cruel action. It's turned into persecution, misunderstanding, superiority, and inferiority. It's turned into "my way is better"  and "how could you do that, be that, say that?"

It's turned into modern-day crucification, deterioration, of the mind and soul, it's the new tool of war and it blows a hole...straight through me...for you hang me from a fucking cross and put the crown of thorns on my head....stick a spear in me, spit on me, and pray that I'm dead.

How could you judge me and don't know me? How could you penalize me for being me? You don't know who am I, what I've been through.You don't know me because you're not me, you're you...and for all those high opinions you have it's like you're not human at all. On your gold throne while I'm simple and small. You don't know who I am, where I've been, where I'm going...but you know enough to slap me and show me... I ain't nobody, I'm evil, I'm nasty, I'm someone who's full of sin and blasphemy....well I might not be perfect, hell I might be evil too...but I can tell you something...yes I got some news for you...if you think that life is black and white...bad and good...wake your ass up... look real good. Because if the world is black and white then I'll proudly say I'm covered with soot, I've made mistakes...got dirt on my foot...I've been bad, good, and all that in between...wicked, mean, sweet kind. I'm a strong ass indvidual with an awesome mind....

I've feared and conquered....weathered the storm....I'm happy I rolled in the mud...cut my knees...spilled a little blood....I've lived my life and that's true....but you in your clean white robe and spotless kingdom...if you look at your feet...you'll see the mud too.

~Your Truly, Miss Niah